I’ve Started My Final Medication Taper – Lexapro!

Lexapro Antidepressant Taper
Scary and exciting!

After mentally preparing to reduce this medication (the fear is intense! This is an SRI, and I’ve been on them for 12 years!) I woke up April 4, 2018 and just KNEW that that was the day.  And since I already came off one med, I know I can face whatever temporary challenges arise!

So I got out ma knife, cut my 20 mg pill into 17.5 mg and swigged it back. I had great energy, so just before noon I went to the gym for a workout.

Discontinuation Symptoms

On the bike ride to the gym, and when seeing bright TV screens, I could tell that my eyes were sensitive and I had blurry vision.

Antidepressant Discontinuation Symptoms
Headache, blurry eyes, tunnel vision, irritable, brain frustration.

In the evening, my eyes felt set back in my head, I had mild tunnel vision, a headache and heaviness behind my eyes, I as crazy irritable and my brain felt an inner frustration.  Likely because I was not giving it the same level of chemical mood-regulating hormones its been used to.  My brain actually felt pissed off!  ha ha!

Then Improvement

On this day 1, I ate all fruit that day, plus a mostly raw salad for dinner.  And I slept great that night.

The next day (day 2) I ate well again all day until dinner when I craved a cooked meal of rice, fried tofu and cooked veg.  Day 3, after a 10 hour sleep, I woke with inflammation, swollen eyes, sinus pressure and body soreness.  But I could tell that this was a build up response to the cooked foods and my body just craved more detox.  Only my eyes were still slightly blurry but they were coming back into focus!

So really, only one half day of any real discomfort, then minor effects over the next 2 days.  It went better than I expected!

Now I’m going to stay taking this 17.5 mg level until I feel my body has come back to great and I’m ready to do another taper.

My Motivation for Detoxification

Many of us, anywhere along our journeys, have often waited until rock bottom to make a positive change.  This got me thinking in relation to all the videos I watched about Dr. Morse’s detoxification theory and illnesses.

If people are curing their cancers with the detoxification process, why wouldn’t I try to heal my depression now?  And not wait until I have a life threatening illness to make a change?  ie. brain cancer.  (Assuming one neurological condition could be related in any way to another neurological disease.  That’s just my brain going in to extreme “what if” mode.   ha ha!)

My time is now baby.  I’m not a rock bottom kind of girl.  I’ve learned to pay attention to my foot slipping off the rock pile.

 

Cleansing Effects Chart

This chart was also shared with me by my detox friend Anthony. Very valuable!  It was great to reference when I noticed a new symptom.

And such a huge relief that I started detox now with clinical depression and mostly mild effects vs. waiting until (maybe?) I had a life threatening condition and had to go through the strong cleansing effects.  (My love and hopes for healing to anyone going through such health conditions!)

I used this chart to reference my own cleansing affects.

The China Study: A Medical Resource

During a soccer practice yesterday with our young-ins,  I shared with a new friend my effects of fruit detoxing and eating a plant-based diet.

Potential medical evidence of what’s happening with my detox.

After watching “What the Health” and getting excited, she admitted that afterward her skepticism crept in.  She explained that she is from a medical background, and found some of the information over reached.

I was so happy she shared because it left me with the question – if I’m detoxing and coming off meds so far pretty successfully, are there not any medical publications that support what’s happening to me?

Not coincidentally, someone just last week gave me a copy of the book The China Study by T. Colin Campbell Ph.D and I just started the first two chapters.  I cannot put it down!!  This book seems like it’s going to be a major resource plus references to link alternative case studies with medical evidence.

I will write a formal review once I’ve finished the book.  But take a look in the meantime if this interests you!

“You Don’t Have Depression” According to Vietnamese TCM Dr.

So, I loved working with Mr. Sau but the pricing of his herbs were really high!  About $25 cdn per 2 days of herbs or so.  In Canada, I’d pay about $70 for a month’s supply!  (To give you an idea of interesting costs here, a full dental cleaning in a modern office is $6, to get our cat spayed $2, a meal $2-$4).

The Vietnamese people as so kind, and Mr. Vu told me about a local herbs shop where I could get what I needed a lot cheaper.  So off I went on my e-bike to find the shop!

When I got there, I realized we had a translation problem.  So when the shop owner asked me “what your problem” I pulled out my cell phone and trusty Google Translate, and typed in “I have depression.  My head is sad”.  He looked at me so funny!  Then typed back “you can do more”.  Then he said “exercise”…

When we both realized that this form of translation wasn’t going to get us very far, I called Mr. Vu to come meet me at the shop.  When he arrived, he asked me what I told the shop owner that my problem was.  I showed him my phone.

He got so frustrated at me!  He said “this is not what you have!  You have blocked energy!  If you really feel that you have this depression then you go to the hospital and the doctor will give you pills”.  (It’s true, that’s all they do).

While it was not fun to call in a favor, then waste Mr. Vu’s time with

Friendly TCM herb shop owner.

my lack of listening skills, I’m really glad he spoke up with emotion.  It drilled it home to me that in Vietnam, depression isn’t a thing.  It’s a western term.  I immediately apologized, then payed attention to the facts and sensations in my body.  I re-framed why I was there in terms of my symptoms:

“I have a headache, my eyes feel sunk in my head, I’m weak and I have no energy for myself or anyone else in my family”.

I was then whisked to the back area where my pulses were taken by the shop owner, more questions asked (yep!  Libido still at zero!) then I was given a weeks worth of herbal formulas for $12 cdn plus some fresh ginger.  Ah, that’s better!

Herbal powder, herb balls and fresh ginger. $12 cdn.

Ok, lesson learned.  I don’t have depression.  I have a mixture of symptoms that I need to heal.  Thanks Mr. Sau, Mr Vu and the really nice man at the herbal shop!