I’ve Started My Final Medication Taper – Lexapro!

Lexapro Antidepressant Taper
Scary and exciting!

After mentally preparing to reduce this medication (the fear is intense! This is an SRI, and I’ve been on them for 12 years!) I woke up April 4, 2018 and just KNEW that that was the day.  And since I already came off one med, I know I can face whatever temporary challenges arise!

So I got out ma knife, cut my 20 mg pill into 17.5 mg and swigged it back. I had great energy, so just before noon I went to the gym for a workout.

Discontinuation Symptoms

On the bike ride to the gym, and when seeing bright TV screens, I could tell that my eyes were sensitive and I had blurry vision.

Antidepressant Discontinuation Symptoms
Headache, blurry eyes, tunnel vision, irritable, brain frustration.

In the evening, my eyes felt set back in my head, I had mild tunnel vision, a headache and heaviness behind my eyes, I as crazy irritable and my brain felt an inner frustration.  Likely because I was not giving it the same level of chemical mood-regulating hormones its been used to.  My brain actually felt pissed off!  ha ha!

Then Improvement

On this day 1, I ate all fruit that day, plus a mostly raw salad for dinner.  And I slept great that night.

The next day (day 2) I ate well again all day until dinner when I craved a cooked meal of rice, fried tofu and cooked veg.  Day 3, after a 10 hour sleep, I woke with inflammation, swollen eyes, sinus pressure and body soreness.  But I could tell that this was a build up response to the cooked foods and my body just craved more detox.  Only my eyes were still slightly blurry but they were coming back into focus!

So really, only one half day of any real discomfort, then minor effects over the next 2 days.  It went better than I expected!

Now I’m going to stay taking this 17.5 mg level until I feel my body has come back to great and I’m ready to do another taper.

I’m Off Seroquel! One Med Down, One to Go…

It’s April 1 here in Vietnam, but no joke!  Last night was the first time in over a year that I didn’t take any evening dose of Seroquel!! (Quitiopene fumarate). Now, I didn’t fall asleep until past 2 am (this med put me in a sleep coma every night for 12 hours), but I fully accept any withdrawal effects of this last dose.  And I’m hoping they are not too bad as I did spread out this dose to two weeks from my last reduction.  I had been taking 13.5 mg since March 17).

All the pills I WON’T be putting into my body over the next few months and the fruity goodness medicine I’ll be eating instead!

I just love how free I feel, as though it’s one less chemical my body is chained to.

“Freeeeedommmmm!!!” (Quote from Braveheart. Didn’t William Wallace slam a quick piece of fruit into his mouth before charging into battle??)

 

Osteopathy Treatments – WOW! Healing Catapult!

Yet once again, as per usual every month or less, I got a good headache which always felt like it was coming from my upper neck and the base of my scull.

I’ve always done Chiropractic to ease my discomfort. But with no chiropractor in Hoi An, I went to see an Osteopath who reached out to my online plea for help.  I saw Dr. Mathieu Tieum three times at the Luminary Life health center. 

January 19

First Osteo appointment.  Had good energy after, but went to bed really early.    Woken up twice by the kids.

January 20

Busy day in Danang then the Hoi An Social Club event in the evening.  Went to bed a little later than usual.

January 21

Couldn’t seem to wake up!  (usually up between 6 & 6:30 am).  Finally got up at 8:15.  Napped all afternoon.  Agitated all day.  Went to bed at 7: 15 pm and slept uninterrupted.

January 22

Woke up at 6:00 am.  Went for a walk.  Sore back and left leg.  Still agitated although less.  Mild depression.  Did a gym workout and then beach meditation.  Helped a little.

January 23

Good mood and good energy.  Sore from my workout.  3:30 pm ‘gut rot’ stomach pain and bloating.  (ate at 7:30 am, then not again until 11:30 am when I had Pho soup.  Then chocolate and peanut butter at 2:30 pm)

The magic happened on the third visit. 

February 2

While Dr. Mathieu did work with movement of my physical body, he also helped me connect and ask my highest self what it truly wanted.  He had me focus on a happy place activity and for me that’s hiking.  I saw and felt myself hiking through dense trees, on a blue sky day.  Moving steadily on a mild incline, well marked trail. 

Dr. Mathieu asked me what seeds he could help me plant, and what words they would be.  After some struggle and nothing, I saw the words Vibrant, Flow, and then a few seconds later Aligned appeared.  As though it was saying “wait for me!!”  ha ha! 

After this, for the first time in my meditation journey, I was able to just see light radiating around the middle of my forehead and in between my eyes (what is often taught as the “third eye”).  I had no mind chatter or visualizations at all.  So I was able to focus on the light, let it get stronger, pull back, then focus on it again.  I had control!   It felt amazing; like pure love.  And a radiant smile formed on my face all by itself.

Next I saw a blue light swirling through my whole body, part by part.  It started in my head, swirled down my neck, into both shoulders, my chest and heart,  stomach, down both legs where it hung out a bit in my knees, to my feet and then gone.  I noted that it stayed extra long in my head, jaw, bowels, cervix and knees.

After this, I couldn’t believe what had just happened.  It was magical.  Dr. Mathieu and I chatted about everything very excitedly.  I felt so light and ecstatic.  And my headache (my initial reason for seeking treatment) was long gone.

Gut Healing Advice

Dr. .Mathieu also gave me a recommendation for healing my gut flora.  He suggested that I get a small amount of natural clay, put it in a cup of water and let it settle over night.  In the morning on an empty stomach, give it a little swirl, then drink the water on top of the clay.  Next add more water and let it sit again until the next day.

He also recommended that I try fasting.  I really know nothing about this, so I will need to explore further!  Hmmm!

Sadly, Dr. Mathieu left Hoi An to travel onward a few days later, but I felt like he gave me the tools I need to move forward.

So now, it’s up to me to explore what all that meant, and how I can give my soul the flow, vibrancy and alignment it wants!

Thank you Dr. Mathieu!  I am so grateful for the healing gift you gave me!

(Dr. Mathieu Tieum also practices in Paris, France.  I recommend that you look him up if you’re there!)

My Next Steps + Hope For My Personal Healing

  1. Watched every video I could find by Dr. Robert Morse on Depression, Anxiety and other conditions of interest.  (He can be intense at times and go off on tangents, but just ignore this and pay attention to his knowledge and experiences).
  2. Joined the Fans of Dr. Robert Morse ND on Facebook.

    Amazing community of people naturally healing themselves.
  3. Posted a question on this Fans Of… forum.  “Has anyone healed their depression and safely gotten off antidepressants doing a detoxification?  And using Dr. Morse’s theory about getting your body alkaline?”  I received tons of replies from people that had the same question, plus many that are currently healing themselves or have done it!  Whoooooooot!
  4. Continued eating just fruit, one kind at a time, in mass quantities at each meal and snack.  

“Can’t Touch This!…”  Duh nuh nuh nuh (M.C. Hammer!)